How do I experience depression?

Depression presents itself in many ways. There is the obvious one where one feels depressed generally. This could be the result of a mental condition such as chemical imbalance. Then there could life-events that put us in the stat of depression. Look within and see which one you likely represents your state of mind.

The depression for me is as a result of several life events:
1. I've experienced failure after failure in all tasks  that I pursued including my new busines
2. Failure by my body to have failed to find a solution to my debilitating migraine problem and no specialists can tell me how to fix it. So this is chronic-pain induced depression.
3. Failure by my conduct to be a good partner to the one I love in that my depression often makes it difficult for me to support him when I know he needs it.
4. Failure to by my mind to have passion for the work I do to change or improve people's lives. This means I'm failing in my own career.
5. Numbers 1 and 4 relate to me trying to a business after being off the only medication that worked... and allowed me to work proficiently and studiously
6. Failure by me to be available to my family. All I want to do is stay at home, no visitors no guests, only my partner can come. Social visits are impossible for me without taking the medication.

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